Come in 3's?

OK bad thing MUST come in three's right? I have only up to go...so lets hope so. It started last week, when I decided I was bored...and hadn't been on a Crazy Blind Date in a few months...so I signed up for a few. Last Thursday, one was set up with a 40 year old who said he "was a real cowboy" which cracked up the guys at work...and then canceled...saying in the email that he had to work late. Me responding with:

Hi there,You had a date with me tonight and I thought it was funny...because I too am working and was starting to get stressed I wouldn't be done in time for 8! so your email took weight off my shoulders. What do you do?

Then nothing...never heard from him again...OK was he married?

Last night was date number two...I was running late so I send him a text message...telling him exactly that...and nothing...I arrive at a LOUD dark bar, and have NO idea who he is and if he is even there since I hadn't heard from him...after 29 minutes of waiting...I finally get a text saying "oh man, I forgot...I went home sick from work today, wasn't feeling well."

Then tonight...I had another one. He texted me 2 minutes after Crazy Blind Dates gives the OK to text, texting "Cupid" uhhh what does that mean?? We finally meet, and he seems super nervous...stuttering some and repeating things over and over. I gave him a break though...as I said he just seemed nervous...but at times, I wondered if he was all there...and then he tells me that he works with special education kids...which makes me think...now it makes sense...

We sat down...and I tried to have a full conversation...which was a little all over the place with repeats here and there...For example I would ask, "Where are you from?" and he would say, "Where are you from?""Where are you from?""Where are you from?""Where are you from?" I kept thinking...is it nerves or just who he is...the loud voice all of sudden that made me look around to make sure people weren't staring...but I kept my smile in place. We are close to the end and he asks for the check...he seems to be in a hurry all of a sudden, throws down a 10 and says here is half...which really wasn't since the bill came to 21+tip...meaning 10 didn't even cover his part...since his beer was more expensive then mine. But whatever...as I am putting my credit card in my wallet...he gets up and puts on his coat and says, nice meeting you and walks out the door!

I watched him leave...shit...what was that all about...I have never ever had that experience...and I have had worse dates as well...

I walk out myself and almost run into him...and turn fast, pretending I didn't see him...since I didn't want another awkward moment. I walk out and see him looking confused at the stop walk...and then he starts to cross and bolts into a run...and I stood there watching him run all the way in the lights of the street ahead.

I think this had to be one of the weirdest dates yet...one more story for the blog I guess.

Sonnet

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The Sonnet
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLD)
The Sonnet

Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.GLD&g=0&o=1

Home by 10:30

I went out with Mr Red on Saturday night. I wasn't expecting this to be a date as much as just getting some drinks with a friend. I told him to text or call and let me know the plans...

He said around 8 and he would text...and then 8 rolls around Saturday night and nothing...then at about a quarter past I get an email and a text saying he was running late...he will be there at 8:30.

I was kind of annoyed...but gave him the benefit of the doubt thinking maybe he thought when i said call or text he meant as he was leaving...as since I didn't have plans...since he technically was my plans...I went along for the ride...or walk...since it was just down the street.

I got there...and it was the same as the last time I met him...kind of awkward...I actually kind of wondered what I was doing there...since he kind of seemed like he would have rather been anywhere but there. He proceeds to text for the next few minutes as I am looking at the dinner menu. He finally puts the phone away. I think that someone who uses there phone during dinner is one of the rudest things...unless there is a reason...but he didn't tell me either way.

We finally ordered wine...and as the wine loosened the tongue we started talking about the economy and politics...religion and anything else that we could think of. The conversation flowed well enough...but we still had those uncomfortable silences. After dinner...we walked out...him asking me what his options were in response to whats next.

I said...the bar down the street...driving somewheres else...or my place to watch TV or something...he says nope I don't like TV...and Ill be honest I didn't want him over anyway...but wanted to be nice and ask...so he then says well I have an early day tomorrow...so Ill be seeing you.

SO...as you can see...that might be the last time I see him...maybe we will run into each other somewhere at some point...but it was just an uncomfortable night all the way around.

Mr Salesman at the Oscars

It has been a few since my last post. I am just not sure what to write...I have been talking The Salesman, we kind of stopped talking some around the holidays but he did contact me again...and we have been talking since.

We finally met a few weeks ago...went for Indian on a cold gray Sunday afternoon. It was nice...he was exactly what I expected. I'm torn about him...he is nice and sweet...but seems unhappy allot. Is it just bad luck on his part? or is he just this way? It is hard to tell at this time...that only thing about all of this...and why I bring it up...is that I feel like since I am apt to be negative...its hard not to be when he is...does that make sense?

He came over to my house Sunday night...to watch the Oscars. Its funny because I did the same thing last year...some guy came over and we watched the 06 Oscars. That was Mr Artsy...wow things have changed since then...but then again have they really? I feel like I am stronger then I was last year at this time....and Anchorman is finally someone in my past...even though it took waaay longer then it should have.

Mr Salesman came over...just the two of us and my roomate on the third floor. I feel really comfortable with him. SO of course I ask the questions...

Is it because I got to know him over the last few months?
Is it because we are friends and nothing else?
Is he playing me and trying to sell me something? so of course i will be comfortable!

I made lasagna and he brought two bottles of wine. We talked...he did finally hold my hand...but he didnt kiss me. I kind wanted to, it has been awhile...ha...but it is what it is...and we just huged goodnight. Maybe next time? Or maybe we wont be anything more then friends...I guess I wont know until I see him again.

Thats all that has been going on in the last few weeks. I decided to stop dating dating for a bit...therefore..dont date to lose weight. I have been focusing on losing weight. My brother is getting married in late June. And I have to wear a sleeveless dress...so I have been going to the gym...doing weights...and eating weight watchers points...very religiously too...I have been strict...and trying to be better.

I feel better though...I feel like my anxiety hasnt been as bad...is that because>

I am rested?
I am not eating as much sugar and caffeine...therefore my heart rate is more regular?
Is it because I am learning to deal with things better?
Is it because I am not really dating...and that's one less stress?

Anyway...that's me and my life for the last few weeks...

Finally

So I was telling a friend this morning that maybe I wasn't as into Mr Tea as much as I thought I was. I mean I thought he was super cute...and sure we had a lot in common...but I never felt super comfortable with him. Don't get me wrong...if I have the chance to see him again...I def want to take it...because maybe I could laugh with him...maybe I was to nervous or maybe he was and he just seemed way to serious. But, I know a lot of this came from no response to Wednesday's email...

This was all before having my fist sip of caffeine and before checking gmail. And look who I had an email from? But of course!! Mr Tea...talking about how he was to tired from Friday night to do a pub crawl Saturday...which I had invited him to.

Yes, he is cute...and nice. BUT, def not nice enough to send an email sometime last week about Saturday? Since I decided to go to Vermont and wasn't around if he had decided he was going to go after all. He just isn't that into me. I do believe some of that book...He just isn't that into you!

Its true though...if he wanted me...he would have emailed or called. So I think him and I will hopefully be friends...I hope so anyway. I would love to find someone to go to see a show with...someone I could connect with on different levels...but...whatcha gonna do? I am not going to beg...and plead to call me or contact me...if you don't, well then that's your loss.

I am trying to believe that what will be will be...I guess I will let fate be in charge from now on...hmmmm...will I really? Well for tonight I will :)

Is that your final answer?

I went to trivia tonight with Mr tea...and 4 other friends. I am not sure what to think...it wasn't easy to talk...and I hope he wasn't bored. All my insecurities came out tonight... and one major one is not being seen as smart. I didn't know many of the trivia questions...and now I wonder how dumb do I look?

I am not sure what was what I guess...it was so loud and busy that we didn't get to talk much... and I just wasn't sure what to talk about in front of everyone. Its funny, I got super shy...and I felt like I just wasn't being me...

I mean we did sit next to each other, and he def leaned in a few times...and I leaned to of course! He did feel comfortable to finish my pizza... and he did have a beer...so he does drink, which was something I wondered. But, it just didn't flow as well as the first date...or first meeting. I did invite him along to a pub crawl this weekend with friends...and he didn't say no or yes...said to let him know.

I just in a way wish I had spent more alone time with him, cause I wasn't sure what to talk about with him. And now I am afraid that we are in friend zone...and maybe be nothing more. And me...I worry. I just am not sure what to think and am not sure what to do. I mean he might think I just want to be friends since we did this...and wouldn't ask me out again...or maybe he would? I am just not sure...and do I ask him? DO I tell him that it was hard to talk...maybe he could teach me backgammon or do dinner next time?

As we said our goodbyes, I wasn't sure what to do...so once again I just said goodbye and smiled...and walked away. I didn't hug like I probably should have...its just that its so awkward...and I'm such not a touchy feel person, not until I'm close to them that is.

So, I am not sure whats what and that is my final answer!

Tea time...

I met someone new on Thursdays night, another crazy blind date. Man he was so cute, it kind of is a bummer that my first thought was "wow, he is to cute to be into me" But he smiled and had the awkward few moments...but he is from Jacksonville Florida, so we talked allot about the south...and my ties to it.

We also talked about TV...music (which he listens to almost everything I do) ...movies...even books...we talked for almost 2 hours straight. We went to a tea cafe...which was really different...and he even bought!!! Since starting this new side of dating....no one has paid...which I totally understand. But he did. He opened doors and even walked me to my car at the end of the night.

He had the most amazing dimples...and was bald (I loved it). I was really happy when he told me he had a good time and that we should do this again sometime. We exchanged numbers and he then said we should do trivia or he could teach me backgammon some night...I smiled a huge smile and said sure, Id be game. I was super nervous so I think I might have sounded like an idiot....and I didn't know what else to do so I smiled and said good night and walked towards my door.

When he got home he responded right away to the service and sent me his email and number again. I too did the same. I did text him last night after the football game to see if he was sad that the jaguars lost...he texted back pretty fast.

I guess now I am waiting for him....which is what I guess I am suppose to do...:( I don't know at this point what to do...I guess just wait and see.

I have been emailing the guy from last week...I am not sure what to call him, maybe Red Top? He has been busy with work...and on Friday I sent him an email saying I was bored and if he was around to give me a call...he responded saying he was busy with construction on his house and maybe Sunday night if he was finished...I emailed back:

I hope the walls were good to you this weekend...and u got all the stuff done. No worries....I just quit my part time job...which was working in the natick mall during the weekends...and now I am off all weekend and I am not sure what to do with myself.

So yea, I found things to do with some friends and me time...which was def needed...

:)

OH and some cleaning....more is needed but it was def a start....

I hope all is well with you...

Anyway, it is what it is...wait and see...wait and see...and oh yea...wait and see :)