Is that so bad?

I watched the movie Two Lovers tonight... it was a free one so why not? Made me think...

Summary from IMDB.com
Two Lovers is a romantic drama set in New York City. It tells the story of Leonard (Joaquin Phoenix), an attractive but depressed young man who moves back in with his parents following a recent heartbreak. An aspiring photographer, Leonard works part-time at his father's dry-cleaners. His concerned parents try to set him up with Sandra (Vinessa Shaw), the sweet and caring daughter of a close family friend. A big family dinner serves as their introduction and Leonard arranges to see her again. Then late one night Leonard looks out his bedroom window and notices a ravishing young woman he's never seen before. Michelle (Gwyneth Paltrow) recently moved into an apartment in his family's building - an apartment paid for by the wealthy married man she's seeing.

It made me think about love and marriage, what's real and what isn't? I've know people who have affairs... what does that mean about them? the significant other? the other woman? I mean how can the person(he) cheat? He lives two lives I suppose... and what about the other person? Is the other woman so weak she can't live without him... or is that person just doing what he is... living their own lives... together and happy... who cares that when he goes home he is going to another bed... as long as you don't think about it to much then all is good right? Maybe he tells her he loves her and he will leave his family for her... I then wonder about the wife... what does she know but keeps hidden... afraid of what the truth will tell her... or does she just love him that much? Maybe its enough?

In this movie... the Two Lovers, had a the other woman, the husband, the guy who loves the other woman, and the girl who loves that man.

I could see myself in the the girl who loves that man... she was the girl who is forgotten... who is misplaced... who is the fall back girl. I wonder if she knew he was taken... not married... but taken because he was always somewheres else when he was with her... when his heart gets broken... you are the one he will turn to. Is that ok? He must love you somewhat... enough to live with you the rest of his life. But is that so bad? Isn't a long love that is comfortable and balanced better then passion and fights and tears?

I was upset at the end... thinking how she has no clue that the ring he buys her is really meant for someone else. She thinks his tears are for her rather then the for someone else.

He must care enough about her to marry her... I keep going back to... he likes spending time with her... or how else could he do what he is doing? He must grow to love her, and if so... is that ok?

All of them settled... If I was her... would it be ok that he settled with me... as long as we are happy and loved life...

Not so crazy

I went out last night with a crazy blind date guy. He forgot until I sent the "I'm late text!" Oh well he was nice to come even though he had been asleep when he got the reminder. We were very different... not in a bad or good way... just different culturally. He isn't my usual... but he wasn't bad either. We exchanged numbers and talked about hanging out again sometime. Not sure what that means... I am not sure either one of us knows... he did walk me to my car at the end of the drinks... was super sweet.

Not much new besides that. I have been trying to meet new people... going out with friends and whatnot... but at times its always the same ol same ol... and no one new comes around... I have decided to just have a nice time and not worry if this is the night I might meet the next cutie.

I am not doing so good at the gym resolution. In other words I need to getta move on! Literally!! My goal is 304 times this week before I hit Atlanta... then I need to just eat OK rather then go hog wild while away!

Keeping busy is my motto for the next few weeks... get me through the winter dep that can hit! Happy and busy = me!