Got a kiss!

I had my date saturday night, he was nice...and yea he did resemble harry...but wasn't bad looking. He definitely was more cute then he was hot...but that was ok.

I had a hard time telling with him...we talked a lot...but had some awkward silences as well. Was he into me? I have nooo idea really... was it the beer... or was he into ME!....as he was on his 4th beer of the night, he started really leaning into me to talk and hear...since the place had gotten super crowded. We hung out and chatted for over four hours...him finally asking if I was ready to go. He rubbed my back as he walked out the door...and walked me to my car.

It was kind of late...and getting cold and rainy out...so I asked him if he would like a ride home...he said "no thats ok"...and I said, "Are you sure?" and then he said, "Sure, why not"

I drive him to his place and pull over...we smile and he leans in...I lean in...going for a hug and maybe a kiss on the cheek...and he goes right for the lips. The kiss was a little awkward at first...as usual first kisses are I am sure. He then says "come up." I said no, I can't...I think I will head on home...then I get a horn honking from behind... I pull away from his place... with him still in the passenger seat. I pulled onto a street to turn around and he leans over and kisses me again. I agreed at that point to go into his place...knowing it wasn't a great idea...but I kept saying...ok...I will go in...but don't expect to get lucky.

I stuck with my guns...and didn't let him win...I said no. We did kiss a lot...and he did beg for me to spend the night...even though I said no to the actual act...he said that was ok... that he liked me and wanted to see me in the morning. I smiled... and said, yea you can... but not here... you need to call me to see me.

Finally, after a bit...he said "when can I see you again?" I said, "I don't know you tell me" He then gets up and says, "what is your number?" I give it to him, get up and said my goodbyes. He kissed me again at the door and said I'll see you or I'll call you...something like that.

I went home...checked my email and responded to Crazy Blind Date with how the date went...and responding to "Mr Potter" that I had a lot of fun, thanks for tonight, and Call Me!

I know its only Monday, but I haven't heard from him...not even a response through Crazy Blind Date... not sure what to think...I will give it a few days...but I am kind of worried I will never hear from him. I did get my kiss...or kisses...so I can not complain...and I did have a great night...with him paying even...but I wonder what I did that I could have done differently...I do thank god that I didn't sleep with him, and then have him still not call...cause then I would feel even worse.

I am not even sure what I felt...was I even all that attracted to be honest...he kissed me so I went along with it. All I know is I did have fun...and would like to see him again...but...I guess its in his hands, not mine. I just need to tell myself that even though he doesn't call...if he doesn't call...that it isn't me...its him...and its his loss... I don't want him anyway...but I need to NOT feel rejected and instead feel relieved...right?

Just one kiss!

I have decided to go on another crazy blind date...maybe it was just bad luck...and bad luck does come in threes. I am just going try again. I didn't sign up for one after another...but I do have one on Saturday night...with Michael who is 31...says he looks like Harry Potter....oooh...good or bad?

Anyway...I have been doing therapy these days...and she says it is good for me to get out there...just agreed with me to just have fun. I cant go back to the online dating...not like before...because its the little things with online dating that gets weird. For example I was talking to some guy not long ago and even made plans for a Saturday night...I was honest in the beginning that I am not super thin...which he said was fine...until he sees another pic of me at the end...and then 11 days later he responds saying "I think I will take a pass" uhhh OK? A pass? Your loss not mine!

Just online dating is a waste of my time and energy...while this blind date is only a few hours...I can blow it off more this way. The thing..the key is...not to set dates one right after the other...cause then yea I do get burned out. So....I am going to stay out in the game...just slower then I was 2 years ago...its easier today then 2 years ago to blow it off...

I just want to find someone I can kiss...haha...bad I know...but I have such a hard time even kissing on a first date...I want to find another Anchorman that can make my tummy flutter and makes me smile at just his name being mentioned...BUT....someone who treats me with a little bit more respect...Just want to meet someone who I can make it the second maybe even a third date....someone who makes the first move...just once...then we will see what i will wish for!

Mix N Mingle touchbase!

The Mix N Mingle went well, didn't have much to say about it...I did see Mr Artsy, he looked really different...we looked at each other and it took a good few secs to realize who it was...which was the same amount of time it took him to come to the same conclusion cause he turned around before I could even smile. He then made sure he was never in eye sight again.

I did see one cutie that I was going to talk to but before I did he was in an intense all night convo with a petite blond. I did get hit on by one guy...he was foreign and very nice...he just never came out and asked for my number, but did give me his business card of where he is a cook...saying to come in...hmmm we shall see. He ran after me actually after I said my goodbyes. I was at the door and hear footsteps...someone...him...saying wait...katie...it was so nice to meet you...and then he gives me a hug...I smiled...and same it was nice to meet you too. I didn't know what to do or say...so I said goodbye...who knows.

Mix N Mingle!

I am off to a singles event to night...a part of me....a huge part of me almost bailed on it. The weather helped me convinced to go out on the town. I feel like I have enjoyed being alone on weekends... a lot of times I say no to this or that...or maybe I haven't looked for anything to do...I just wanted time to rest...sleep...and maybe some reading or TV time.

I am not sure why I have been more of a hermit...is it the weather? Me being exhausted from working to many hours count? Am I sad? Am I just starting to realize I can enjoy time for me...without looking like a looser cause I am home ALONE on a Friday or Saturday night.

Tonight for this event: "Yes we're doing a Mix N Mingle formerly known as Grab A Date. Non meet up people are always welcome and encouraged only for this event they should be single as well (see above definition of single)! Guys are highly encouraged to join us!" It sounds like around 150 people are going to show...one who I have already dated...Mr Artsy will be there...wonder if he still lives at home?

I have been kind of scared of this...running into someone I have dated...what do I say...how do I react? Its not like him and I had anything emotional or physical like Anchorman or MrBeBe...but we did kiss...and I just am not sure how to react.

The Salesman and I are done...which kind of just stopped by petering out...I called one night and he texted back "Sup" I wrote, "Not much" I was trying to figure out a way to say lets just end this...but he never called or texted again...and neither did I. I guess...we felt the same way...what was the point of continuing something that just wasn't working.

Well, I am off to get ready for tonight...should be interesting!