More Fish in my Sea

Well I have met a few people this week... its kind of ironic really... a few people from my past IMing days came back to pester me this week. Which wasn't a bad thing to be honest... it was kind of nice...

I met "Bubba" last summer and I avoided meeting him at all cost...I'm not to sure why... he seemed to always have some issues going on... and then he did have a son... which i didn't want to complicate myself let alone his life. So I kept pulling back...

We finally met almost 9 months later... he was nice. Nicer and cuter then I imagined him to be... and there was that connection I think... not sure where it will go... but he was nice and cute and I felt like we talked allot...

Then there was MR RIP that very same night... him and I met at an family italian restaurant... very nice... he was nice... smart... had more in common with me intellectually wise then Bubba... we made plans to go to movies sometime soon... no idea what or where or when... but at some point.

I guess this week was my getting on with my life week. There are yes more fish in the sea... and Anchorman can stay with his Anchor cause Im off to bigger and better things. Not to sure the guys I met are them... but hell its a start right?

I have kept more in touch with Bubba this week then I did Mr RIP... We talked on and off... not sure where its going though... because at the end of the day I want someone who wants me and will do everything in his power to get me... sounds dumb I know... but I am sick of doing the work... I want someone who wants me enough to show me.

He does mention sex to me sometimes... which is one of the reasons I never met him.

after meeting I kept going off about how thats not me and he will say well I'm just
talking --how many times do i tell u.

so I have been asking him questions today, to find things to talk about things we might have in common. and now he says " i think you
ask allot of questions, just take things as they go, best advice i can give you, don't worry so much hun. i like ya your cool.

i feel like saying well to be honest my questions r to find out if I like you.. not the other way around

I don't know... I wasn't going to contact him again... but we talked again tonight, him telling me he likes me and all that but he has this ex who he liked and so on and so forth... and I said yes I know... I am going through this too... thats why I want to go sloooow. He did get jealous of Mr Big, the guy that I met tonight... saying "wow you do move fast." I am not sure what that meant and it kind of hurt... but the only reason I told him I was meeting with Mr Big was to get him a little fired up... who the F knows.

Now you are probably wondering who Mr Big is... its kind of Ironic but I think I started talking to him not to soon after Bubba and i started to talk last summer. Through the fall I actually got them a little confused at times... one would tell me something and I would interweave there stories and lives...boith disappearing around the same time as well. Bubba went to Connecticut and Mr Big went to god only knows where...someone he was dating so he says. they both came back in my life around the same time as well...which made me wonder...are they the same person after all? But then there voices were different since I had talked to both numerous times.

I even wondered if maybe they are friends...that was 50% of the reason why I told Bubba about Mr Big...what if they were playing me for a fool and wanted to see...see what I am not sure...but I needed to be honest.

MR big was nice...and we had great conversations...but Ill be honest...Im not sure I am that attracted...he was large...and I KNOW I am not thin...but I def. do not need...I don't know what I want to say without it coming out wrong...but its hard for me to be attracted to him allot of the time...more the thought of something sexual...anyway...I know I am being rediculus...especially since I am more Miss Piggy then Miss Paris...but I am just not sure....so I told him as well as I could tonight that I need time...time to get over Anchorman before I am ready to jump in again...

SO, as you can see...Bubba, Mr RIP, and Mr Big all in the same week...hmmm there are fish in the sea...and all found me attractive...we will see who else will...as time goes on...