I wouldnt want to be her!

YUCK!!!
A response the my ad!

She stood silently..motionlessly. Facing a wooden wall cross, she lowered her eyes and opened her heart. She waited. A smell rose to her nostrils, an essence - familiar yet new - her heart jumped in her chest.. and her mind raced. A smell.. a Man.

He approached her with the grace and stealth of a panther.. Dark.. mysterious.. ominously calculating. In spite of her efforts, her breath quickened. She tried desperately to keep control of her body. It was no longer hers.

He did not touch her skin, but instead pushed the hair away from the nape of her neck with one steady finger.. She felt naked. She shuddered, cursing herself for allowing that natural reaction to happen. It betrayed her calm exterior.. and yet, as it revealed her - it released her.. freed her to explore. She smiled.

His breath caressed her neck, never touching her now warm flesh. She wanted desperately to turn.. to face him.. to look away from the base of the cross, where her gaze had been directed.. moments before. She remained still. And she waited.

It felt like an eternity before he touched her skin.. she was so eager to feel his touch against her that she strained the muscles in her back to meet his hands behind her. He pulled away.. retaining the control and revelling in it. She sighed heavily, letting go of some of the pent up energy and the last bit of control. Her shoulders did not fall, but inside she knew she would have to learn patience to gain pleasure and peace.

He kissed her bare neck..scorching it with his lips. Instinctively, she stood perfectly still.. showing him her desire to obey. He was pleased with her position and rewarded her with a touch.. a gentle, firm touch on both shoulders.. pulling her body back and toward his chest.. Her back lay against him.. and he reached around and caressed her breasts.. cupping them.. feeling their weight and examining their softness. She kept her hands still at her sides, eyes lowered and half closed.. and watched as his hands explored her. He pinched. He probed, turning each tit up and dropping it .. then picking it up once more by the pink nipple and let it hang there.. She loved this.

Her sex was moist.. sticky between her parted legs... She felt her arousal growing and deepening.. and as she climbed, she became even more aware of her body.. her feet, her legs, the small of her back, her ribs, her shoulder blades.. every part of her was awake.

He held her nipples.. drawing them up and away from her body and she moaned loudly. He twisted them. He squeezed them. She came. She grabbed his thighs from behind her and bend down from the waist.. trying desperately to remain standing..

Would you enjoy being her? :)

ON CL again!

I can not believe I am writing an ad on here... but what the heck why not try? I'll be honest and say I've had an ad or two and have been on a few dates through CL... but most are nuts... but every once in awhile you find someone real and normal.... maybe thats you?

Well, I am 30... just turned it!! Yikes! I want to start hiking and would love to find someone patient enough to show me the ropes or better yet, learn with me. I love laughing and having a good time... I love going out or staying in... I am not super thin and not super huge... so besides that... write me and I'll write more after :)

Hope to hear from you :)

I decided on friday night in a moment of weakness... after dinner with friends... couples all around me... majority met online... so why not post an ad on CL again.

Maybe I will...

I saw Mr. Friday last Saturday night… he was supposed to come over after dinner with his folks at the cape. He said he couldn’t do anything earlier because of mom and dad… I was fine with that since I was packing and didn’t want to have to stop early.

I got a call at about 8:00… about the time he said he would be here to begin with… saying he was running late… he was cooking chicken broth you see and it had another hour to cook before he could come over. I was to tired to ague… but did wonder what the heck? Wasn’t his excuse that he had to have dinner with his parents hence why he couldn’t come over earlier? And now he is back at home and cooking? Hmm ok? I didn’t feel like arguing… he finally got there around 10:30… and did call and say that he was on his way… I asked him to stop and pick something up for food… him saying we could go out somewhere… me saying no I’m way to tired now… and Ill be honest annoyed.

He came over… we watched SNL and he left. He texted on wed asking about my new place… I moved you see… him never offering to help… and me not feeling like asking… maybe because I already knew the answer.

I haven’t heard from him since… and if I do… will I will be bored again and decide hang out once more… or will I say, I don’t want to do this anymore? I guess we will see, I might join Match or Yahoo… not sure as of yet… but I might…

I am bored... why not?

Mr. Friday and I talked last week… he actually called the following night… we talked… him saying he freaked after reading my text… that we are not girlfriend and boyfriend. That he thought we were dating… he still wants to meet other people and likes not being super serious. I said I was fine with that… but at the same time I am not going to be sleeping with three guys at once… and I don’t expect one guy to leave me to some other girls the next night. Sex complicates things… I am fine dating… but as I said, sex complicates things! Him agreeing, but saying that he feels like that is a part of falling for someone that is a part of knowing someone… I am not sure what we agreed on in the end… but the discussion is out there… and my feelings are known!

We also talked about that I want to know that he wants to see ME and hang out with me… He said he did… that he wanted to see me… he just isn’t good on the weeknights… he works long and tiring hours and just doesn’t like to be social and hang out after work. I said that was fine… but how am I suppose to know that? I said… this is why we are discussing this… cause I don’t know these things and I cant read your mind. Now that I know, we wont make plans during the week. So he then asks, Friday night? I had plans… Saturday he asks? Nope… in Vermont! Ok, well then another time. Me saying, yea, another time… I thought for sure I wouldn’t hear from him again. But Tuesday arrived and I got a text, “How was Vermont?” I texted back a few hours later, he texted asking if I had plans this weekend?

So I called him back verses texting… deciding Saturday night works the best… he is going to come over and hang out… I am moving Sunday… so I am going to be packing… and I am not going to feel like going out…

Who know what all this means… I kind of don’t care and am going to need a break… and have no car… so why not have Mr. F come over. I’m bored, so why not? I am definitely not feeling what I felt when I was see Mr. Anchorman or Mr. Bebe… I guess I am just comfortable at times with him… I just don’t think I like like him… I am not even sure how attracted I am… as I said I’m bored… so why not? Why not for now… as long as he isn’t thinking I am thinking serious… so why not go as is for Saturday and not worry about the following until I need to.

I think I am done

I think I am done with Mr Friday... I decided today to ask him if he wanted to hang out this week... we had texted off and on all week/weekend... him texting on Saturday during my birthday party saying, "Have fun tonight, I am sorry I am not able to be there." which was sweet... so I decided to yes contact him again... and ask him about doing something... he said, "tomorrow or Thursday night, I'm exhausted though from this weekend."

I got annoyed some by that... I can hear him being tired... but what the heck... why not just say wed or Thursday is good?
So, I text "we can do something low key, come over and watch TV or a movie, tomorrow works better then Thursday, call me later."
Him texting: "That's cool, I'm gonna go home and crash tonight."
At this point I was upset about a missing cat and just annoyed by my day so, I decided to write:
"So yes tomorrow night? I just want to see whats going on. I understand being tired, but I guess I want you to want to see me... I don't want to make you see me, does that make sense? I guess I'm having a hard time knowing how you are feeling about this..."

Then texted, "OK, so I just reread what I wrote, and I wanted you to know I am not upset just confused."

Him texting hours later mind you, "I'm sorry but I just got home from a very long day and I'm not ready to deal with this kind of conversation tonight."

I texted:"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it to come off as something deep, Just wanted to get it off my chest. Call me when you want to chat."

SO, my thoughts right now is that I'm tired of this... of him. This is suppose to be fun... and it was for a bit... but I feel like its to much work lately to just hang out. I don't have anymore time then he does... but I was willing to make time... when I'm not that sure about him. BUT, I don't want to force someone... I don't want to feel guilty either. I think he says things to make me feel bad... or is it me feeling bad and he has no idea? I am not sure... but I am tired of this... so I am thinking its over. I am not sure what will happen if by chance he does contact me again... but I kind of feel like that might not happen. And I think I am OK with that.