Finally

So I was telling a friend this morning that maybe I wasn't as into Mr Tea as much as I thought I was. I mean I thought he was super cute...and sure we had a lot in common...but I never felt super comfortable with him. Don't get me wrong...if I have the chance to see him again...I def want to take it...because maybe I could laugh with him...maybe I was to nervous or maybe he was and he just seemed way to serious. But, I know a lot of this came from no response to Wednesday's email...

This was all before having my fist sip of caffeine and before checking gmail. And look who I had an email from? But of course!! Mr Tea...talking about how he was to tired from Friday night to do a pub crawl Saturday...which I had invited him to.

Yes, he is cute...and nice. BUT, def not nice enough to send an email sometime last week about Saturday? Since I decided to go to Vermont and wasn't around if he had decided he was going to go after all. He just isn't that into me. I do believe some of that book...He just isn't that into you!

Its true though...if he wanted me...he would have emailed or called. So I think him and I will hopefully be friends...I hope so anyway. I would love to find someone to go to see a show with...someone I could connect with on different levels...but...whatcha gonna do? I am not going to beg...and plead to call me or contact me...if you don't, well then that's your loss.

I am trying to believe that what will be will be...I guess I will let fate be in charge from now on...hmmmm...will I really? Well for tonight I will :)

Is that your final answer?

I went to trivia tonight with Mr tea...and 4 other friends. I am not sure what to think...it wasn't easy to talk...and I hope he wasn't bored. All my insecurities came out tonight... and one major one is not being seen as smart. I didn't know many of the trivia questions...and now I wonder how dumb do I look?

I am not sure what was what I guess...it was so loud and busy that we didn't get to talk much... and I just wasn't sure what to talk about in front of everyone. Its funny, I got super shy...and I felt like I just wasn't being me...

I mean we did sit next to each other, and he def leaned in a few times...and I leaned to of course! He did feel comfortable to finish my pizza... and he did have a beer...so he does drink, which was something I wondered. But, it just didn't flow as well as the first date...or first meeting. I did invite him along to a pub crawl this weekend with friends...and he didn't say no or yes...said to let him know.

I just in a way wish I had spent more alone time with him, cause I wasn't sure what to talk about with him. And now I am afraid that we are in friend zone...and maybe be nothing more. And me...I worry. I just am not sure what to think and am not sure what to do. I mean he might think I just want to be friends since we did this...and wouldn't ask me out again...or maybe he would? I am just not sure...and do I ask him? DO I tell him that it was hard to talk...maybe he could teach me backgammon or do dinner next time?

As we said our goodbyes, I wasn't sure what to do...so once again I just said goodbye and smiled...and walked away. I didn't hug like I probably should have...its just that its so awkward...and I'm such not a touchy feel person, not until I'm close to them that is.

So, I am not sure whats what and that is my final answer!

Tea time...

I met someone new on Thursdays night, another crazy blind date. Man he was so cute, it kind of is a bummer that my first thought was "wow, he is to cute to be into me" But he smiled and had the awkward few moments...but he is from Jacksonville Florida, so we talked allot about the south...and my ties to it.

We also talked about TV...music (which he listens to almost everything I do) ...movies...even books...we talked for almost 2 hours straight. We went to a tea cafe...which was really different...and he even bought!!! Since starting this new side of dating....no one has paid...which I totally understand. But he did. He opened doors and even walked me to my car at the end of the night.

He had the most amazing dimples...and was bald (I loved it). I was really happy when he told me he had a good time and that we should do this again sometime. We exchanged numbers and he then said we should do trivia or he could teach me backgammon some night...I smiled a huge smile and said sure, Id be game. I was super nervous so I think I might have sounded like an idiot....and I didn't know what else to do so I smiled and said good night and walked towards my door.

When he got home he responded right away to the service and sent me his email and number again. I too did the same. I did text him last night after the football game to see if he was sad that the jaguars lost...he texted back pretty fast.

I guess now I am waiting for him....which is what I guess I am suppose to do...:( I don't know at this point what to do...I guess just wait and see.

I have been emailing the guy from last week...I am not sure what to call him, maybe Red Top? He has been busy with work...and on Friday I sent him an email saying I was bored and if he was around to give me a call...he responded saying he was busy with construction on his house and maybe Sunday night if he was finished...I emailed back:

I hope the walls were good to you this weekend...and u got all the stuff done. No worries....I just quit my part time job...which was working in the natick mall during the weekends...and now I am off all weekend and I am not sure what to do with myself.

So yea, I found things to do with some friends and me time...which was def needed...

:)

OH and some cleaning....more is needed but it was def a start....

I hope all is well with you...

Anyway, it is what it is...wait and see...wait and see...and oh yea...wait and see :)

Mac and Cheese anyone?

On Saturday night...I had my third date in a row. I was kind of tired at that point and yea I will admit a little nervous after the literal crazy blind date from the night before!

We met at a cool pub...that was to be honest the best part. He was very nice...but you could tell very nervous. We sat down pretty fast even though it was fairly busy. We had a nice time...he was in advertising...and we both loved the TV show Hero's and movies. We didn't have much in common though...I don't think anyway...since we kept going into those awkward silences...where I start talking about random things. I am not sure if we will hang out again or not...I replied to the service and to him as we said our goodbyes, saying I would love to see a movie or something sometime. BUT, I haven't heard from him.

I did hear back from the guy from Thursday night. He emailed me actually while I was writing the blog about him. I did email him back the following morning...but haven't heard from him since. We will see as I always seem to say...

Save me!

So Friday's started off rocky...I was late-he was lost. The place didn't exist...the place where we were suppose to meet...so finally we were sitting at a bar that wasn't exactly what what we/I had in mind.

He was Indian, he is only here on business...nice at first...until he told me how he loves the strip clubs here in America. OK...you see in India they do not have strip clubs. He then tells me he has this friend he met off of OK Cupid...who "trust me" he says, she is just a "friend." Hmm..friend my ass...since for one he mentioned her a few to many times...then says well she is only 20...and has a 3 year old...and loves to have sex!!! hmmm....

I tried to bring the conversations to normal territory, but he kept interrupting by asking where I lived one minute, and then five minutes later he would ask how far away was Newton? How far away was newton from where he lived...of course my over anxious mind was wondering why was he asking me these things...along with the strip club and sex talk...yea I was kind of starting to get a bad feeling...well lets just say my bad feeling was growing...right until I put my hand into my pocket, went to the bathroom and called my friend to save me...

I was afraid to even walk to my car...because what if he thought he could follow...so I made my friend meet me for a drink...so I had an excuse not to go right towards my car...man what a weirdo...

I have never been so rude on a date...I was texting my friend right in front of him...I just wanted out of that date and now! Well then...you know what I mean. He pretty much ends the date by asking,

"So is it true? That American women love to have sex? Cause every woman I have met here LOVE to have sex!"

So...at least I have another adventures of KT and the dates...thank god it has been awhile since Ive had one of those...

Miracle of Science!

I met the Crazy Blind Date guy at the Miracle of Science tonight...I got there much to early and texted him saying what I was wearing...a black coat with a white scarf...he texted back saying he was sitting by the window...think red hair! I went in and by god I found just that a red haired guy sitting at the bar by the window...drawing on a graph pad. Hmmm...my heart did a little patter wondering what this guy did...who would have thought I would have something in common with him...more then the average financial guru that it. So we exchange our hello's and decide to move to a table. He seemed kind of distracted to be honest...I am not sure if it was me...or if it was he was nervous? But it was what it was.

So I started asking questions...what were you drawing? What do you do? He isn't a designer but does work with designers...he actually worked where I do now like 9 years ago. It made me laugh to hear some of the stories that has never changed...and the same people that I know now he knew then. It was interesting...and we know some of the same people.

We talked and drank and ate for over two hours. He did loose his wavering eyes once we got into conversations...so I am not sure if the cider loosened him up or maybe me? Who knows...he was nice...I would hang out with him again...I am not sure what was what...maybe a friend? Maybe something more? I am just not sure at the moment. The thing is we never did exchange phone numbers or contact info...I did tell Crazy Blind Date to share my info and said that I would like to get a drink sometime...just let me know. I guess we will see if he bites...if not...onto to tomorrow's date.

It is kind of nice to not have anything invested in this...just hoping he might contact me again...and if not there is nothing lost I guess. Its nice to not have to talk on IM and email until he responds...its kind of up to him to make the next move which is nice.

And yes, I do have another date tomorrow night...should be interesting...he is 26...


Now the question is...after tonight and tomorrow night...I do have a chance for Saturday night as well...do I take it or take a night off and maybe see a movie with a friend? Maybe I can do both...hmmm...

Happy New Year!!

Few I am happy the holidays are over...it has been a crazy season...

I had some great times and not so this season...I just worked way to much and Christmas for me was literally just a weekend, although I did go up to Maine for the New Year with some friends...we had a great time and was just what I needed to break into the new year.

I feel like I have gained tons of weight this season...yuck...so today I hit the gym...along with millions of others I am sure with a new outlook on life...since it is only the second day of the new year...what will the next year bring?

I have joined a new dating thing, "Crazy Blind Date! We like to keep things simple. That's why on very short notice we can set you up on quick dates with total strangers at public places like bars and coffee shops. You're not allowed to see their picture or even communicate."

Its kind of fun...its more face to face. Instead of emailing and Iming to get to know the basics...we will actually do it one on one...face to face. I know it brings along its own issues I am sure, but the immediate impression you get from someone online can be complicated...you think you might know someone...but what is real? and what is made up?

On Crazy Blind Date, I get to see a blurred image of this person, there age and heights, visual cues, and that is about it. Then 30 minutes before the date you can text with the person directly...using a number provided through the service. The only way we get personal info is by exchanging that info.

I did go on a date with one guy a few Fridays ago...kind of salesmany...but he was decent...not really into me...and I wasn't into him either. But, whatcha gonna do...it was faster then spending 3 weeks talking online and then meeting and not liking each other...after investing 3 weeks for nothing?

I have a date tomorrow night and Friday night...should be interesting...I am kind of excited to just meet new people again...

Well, I'll keep you updated...