Another Post? I know! I know!

Ok so I have met some great people off of CL...so I KNOW not ALL the guys here are complete nut cases...so please let me know if someone is finally REAL... I want a guy to wine and dine me. Lets go on a few dates, maybe kiss once or twice and like me for me. Help me like them for them. All I’ve met are the guys that want to fool around during the first date...you see I have a 4-5 date rule. I’m not that kind of girl...I want to have fun, see where it can go...not looking to be married...but am looking for more then being a hook up girl.

I am not thin, I’m not huge either…but I am overweight…a size 14-16. So if overweight women are a turn off…don’t waste my or your time.

Are there any guys that want to DATE me...see where it can go??

Hmm wonder what nutcases will reply....hahah its fun to write what people write on here!

It begins again

So I have been talking to this one guy off and on...We will call him The Salesman...he seems nice...he broke up with his ex only 6 weeks ago...which makes me a like skeptical....but I mean how do I know...it could have been over way before...

The Salesman is a realtor...and reminded me some of Mr Martini...I really cant explain it. He got on the phone and was asking me like a million questions....which was nice don't get me wrong...to finally have someone who is interested...but at the same time it was like he was selling me something. We made plans for Friday but he kept insisting that I drive to him...so when Friday rolled around I decided to bail. I pulled a player card I am afraid...I texted him saying I had a birthday party I forgot about. I am not sure why I did this...was I spooked? tired? just not into it? All of the above?

So after canceling I sent a text to some other guy who I also had been chatting with about meeting up. The thing with him was that he lived in my town, so I thought why not meet up for a drink. SO he accepted, but then it just got weird. I cant explain this...he kept saying he had a meeting and that he would text or call after. I said that was fine...but then he tried to call from the number I had the text from...and never left a message. I then texted saying I saw he had called and was all OK? We then continued to text off and on...him saying he wanted to see another pic of me. I agreed and asked for one from him in return. He then said he couldn't open it. Hmmmm.....I believed him....but then I get a call from him later on that night...and he was just odd...not telling me really what kind of meeting he was in...but the phone he called from came in as private...and then at one point he got another call from a phone somewhere else in the room...I could hear him say can I call you right back....hmmm it was just odd.

He then tells me he never got the email I sent earlier and to resend...which I did and then he couldn't open them again...during all of this confusion he keeps asking what I wanted to do tonight...I said "uhhh get a drink" as I said numerous times by now. He was like and that's all? So you have roommates? HMM....he then say..."2 huh?" I live alone but am house sitting right now. I was like...uhhh ok. He then says...well let me call you when I am done...it just might be kind of late...when originally he said he had a few errands...to a meeting and he could meet me at 8:30...to not sure as to when he would get out.

I said ok and got off the phone...he was to weird for me...all of it just seemed suspicious and odd...so I decided to text and cancel. I didn't hear from him...but did get a call at 6 in the morning...labeled private....weird.

I did get a few calls from The salesman on Friday even though I had canceled. He had seemed genuinely upset and I did feel bad...I just was so cold and so tired...I didn't want to drive to him...I would have met if he had even suggested meeting halfway. I am still in communication with him...and might meet him after all...just haven't decided yet...

And so i guess this means I am dating again...god I hate it...

What's a girl gotta do to get a guy in this town!

What's a girl gotta do to get a guy in this town!
Don't want to be alone when the sun goes down.
Just a little something to put my arms around.
What's a girl gotta do to get a guy in this town!

Had an old woman tell me "Girl if you were smart, you'd hit the produce aisle at the super wal-mart"
So I bumped into a cute SINGLE guy's shopping cart
All I did was break his eggs and bruise his artichoke hearts.

What's a girl gotta do to get a guy in this town!
Don't want to be alone when the sun goes down.
Just a little something to put my arms around.
What's a girl gotta do to get a guy in this town!

(thanks songlyrics.com)

Mr Yahoo too!

So I am not sure what happened with Mr Yahoo...just all of a sudden he stopped IMing and contacting me. Its weird cause its not like I'm super Mr BeBe upset...its more that it was so sudden. He was all into seeing me again and then bam its like he realized something I didn't.

I have been going over and over in my head what happened and as I said...I have no idea. I guess its for the best since I didn't feel the instant spark...and I am not sure what we had in common in the end anyway...but as usual it would have been nice to know what he was thinking...instead of just imagining it.

I have been on Yahoo Personals for a bit now and Mr Yahoo is the only one I have continued to talk to. I have, yes I know some are going to scream at me, but I have put a few odds and end ads on CL and have had a few people to talk to. And then I get to the point of my pic being shown and nothing. I wonder what is wrong with me that guys automatically think I'm not good enough for them. What gives? I know I am no beauty queen, but damn I don't get responses...or someone will be downright mean...I am not sure why and whats wrong with me...

I have been thinking it might be better to meet people out and about. Last week I did go out...and some guy was trying to dance with me...and me being me, I was totally oblivious of this. I took notice of him at one point and even wondered what he was up to...wondering if he was trying to dance or if it was my imagination. I didn't want to be rejected so I ignored him...until he walked out the door. See...I am me...so F-ing oblivious. My friend told me he had been watching me all night and attempting to dance with him and I didn't notice until the end. I saw him dance in front of me once...not the 3-4 times he actually did.

So what is a girl to do? I try and go out and I freak and get nervous and never look guys in the face. I don't know what to do when a guy hits on me...I get all weird...and act like I'm not interested.

So I guess this is the next step of my learning...learning to meet strangers without the Internet...hmmm will it work? I feel like some guy who becomes my friend will like me...cause I have a lot more then one little picture shows. I have been told over and over what a great personality I have and how I have the best laugh...

So maybe one of these days I will meet someone who will enjoy my laugh and me...