and the response is...

well I have heard thatmen come from mars ..we are physical so I think you are beautiful, therfore I'm sold on you ...although I would love to keep my chops up singing songs to you and getting kissses in between..I work as a bill collectore but I should be in politics and /or emtertainment...although if I had a sweet lil' hunnie like you I may be able to pass up the fame and fortune....so call me or give me your # so I can caqll you...what d'ya think?

Ok

So this morning I awake with a new email from the same guy as below... same email... so I emailed back... haha... something new to write about right?

I am not sure what to write here... umm... what would you like to know about me? what interests you and what do you do?

Match: "Can you blame me for wanting you?you're wicked cute"

this is from one guy... I didn't respond because... wow!

Hi KT
how are you?! I wanted to say hello and tell you how devastatingly heartachingly beautiful you are, and very interesting as well.....as long as you are still available for dating and maybe even marriage, feel free to call my cell 617 555 1234 so as to help me expedite the process of courting you..
we could chat over the phone and maybe meet to see if there is a mutual attraction, physically and otherwise, and if there is, we can then proceed accordingly, like maybe I can try to get a kiss after singing you a song and tugging at your heartstrings...sound like a plan?
..I don't have all the answers..I have a few suggestions, ;)..
..and lastly, can a guy look at that pretty face and not fall in love?

your humble suitor,
xxx

What can I say?

I want to do things I’ve never done before... which is a lot... after concentrating on my career for the last 10 years, I thought it was time to concentrate on other parts of my life that I have let fall through the cracks. I woke up the other day and realized all my friends are couples and I just turned 30! Yokes want to do things I haven't done!

I would love for someone who can make me laugh everyday no matter what. I want someone to do things with and to have fun with. I want a person who will do the things I want to do and try.

I joined Match a few weeks ago. I haven’t really had much luck as of yet… but did get a nice email from a guy tonight… responding to one of my dozens of winks I have put out there. I have been busy… I made the mistake of drunk texting "You Alive?" to Mr. Friday last weekend. He called seconds later… and with my state I missed it.

"Hey Katie, I just got your text, but am traveling so I decided to call instead. I am alive… just busy with the economy nightmare (he is in finance). I will call you later on this weekend and maybe we can plan something to hang out”

Ok… so on Tuesday he calls again. I never called back… I kind of forgot about him to be honest as I was healing from Friday’s wounds… so yea, on Tuesday he calls and says

“Hi, I was going to call this weekend, but got super busy and I slept all day Sunday due to my the last few weeks of stress”

Blah blah blah. I didn’t call back… what would I say? I think he might gross me out… except when I am drunk… which is weird! Then I get a text Sunday morning at 7:30 AM!

“Wake and Bake”

Ok, I didn’t respond once again… I am not sure what to say, and I think it’s for the best if I don’t say anything at all!

Just another so-called Match

So I emailed this guy I talked to from Match...

We met a few weeks ago at a baseball game...he met me after the game and we took a walk...nice enough guy...obviously wasn't enough to even comment on in here...but then again maybe I was to side tracked with Anchorman...and Mr Match had just called it quits at that time and was a little all ove rthe place.

Well, we met and had been talking, we go to the same gym and have run into each other a few times now...we have talked on the phone too...and texted tons while I was in FL. Im not sure what there was between us...more of a friendship that was starting...and he seemed nice enough.

After the whole Anchorman went down...I was kind of annoyed at guys in general...so him and I started talking on IM the nday after Anchorman and I had our "discussion." Obviously I was a little testy at that moment...and maybe PMSing some too. So there I was on IM and I asked him when we would hang out again and he said...well I am busy...but we will. You know after all these guys...that is one pet peave lately...bullshit you are busy...get the balls to say its not working...dont use Im jsut so busy right now...I mean if you like someone you WANT to spend time with that person...right?

So I we kind of got into it a little...as much as you can decipher over IM...t hat night I texted him saying sorry I was down... and just testy and I didn't mean to rush getting together...Me then getting this email "Hey I was hoping to chat with you last night but I didn't get a chance. I'm more than happy to hang out with you at some point but you need to calm down a bit. I'm a busy person and its no disrespect to you. I'm sorry your down and not feeling great. I do hope you feel better!"

And we really haven't talked since... so I was feeling bad at how it went down... and he was a nice person... so why not have him as a friend you know? So my email went like this:

Hi...I miss talking to you... I need to be honest with you... allot of
stuff have been going on with me lately...

I had been seeing a guy since November... and we broke it off a few
months later...then about the time you and I met, him and I came into
contact again...therefore when i got upset at you the other day...it
really had nothing to do with you...and more with him. Him and I ended
it finally...it was not a healthy thing...lets put it that way...and I
am a little bit of a mess emotionally...which makes me say this...lets
be friends...

I miss talking to you...I hope you don't think I am nuts...but I
do...and would like to be friends if nothing more....lets hang out and
do stuff...walking that night was nice..and its crazy not to have
another friend in Newton...so what do you say?

Hope to hear from you...

and he responds back:

"ok lets be friends... honestly, i never really had any emotional
attachment just because I really don't know you other than other
phones chats and the walk from fenway. Kinda tough for me to be overly
interested/ emotional invest time into someone I don't even know. Just
my philosophy in life. If you'd like more Honesty if I was overly
interested I'd be pissed right now. I can't stand people and I tell my
friends this all the time, I can't stand people who date or have
crushes or just screw around with multiple people at the same time.
It's really disrespectful and sadly in this self rigthous world it
seems to be the norm, rather than the exception. I'm sure I'll see you
at the Y sometime soon."

So I emailed back:

Wow...sorry...I never said I had an emotional attachment...but thought
maybe we could be friends...sorry

as for screwing around with multiple people...I'm not sure how I did
that when you and I only talked a few times...but ok

Anyway good luck to you...yea maybe I will see you at the Y sometime/
KT

See this is the shit I am dealing with when I meet people..I don't know why it had to end so nastily... and now what if I do run into him at the Y? I guess I will smile and act like a nice girl... hmm maybe I did learn something from the south after-all...

Mr Match wasnt a Match afterall

Mr. Match and I were walking back to my car…it was sweet…the place was pretty dead at 12:30…while he walked me across the parking lot. We get to the car…and he looks really really nervous…hmmm wonder why? Is he going to kiss me or what is he going to do?

“I had a really great time tonight, but I just don’t see this going anywhere.”

Me holding in my pride smiled and said, ”sure that’s fine…its ok really…”

I am not sure what happened…I kind of felt that he wasn’t into it…
1. Was it because I met with Anchorman and was not as into it as I should have been?
2. Was it the way I looked?
3. Was he annoyed about the night before and me canceling on him?
4. Was it that I talked too much trying to fill in the gaps while he was quiet-He said he was tired?
5. Was it someone else he is more into---someone who he hasn’t forgotten either?

We met after I got out of work on Saturday night…and we went and grabbed some food for me and a beer for him…which I bought because he had bought my drinks the last date.

It was a nice time…def not as nice as the previous time…but better then others in my past. So I was a little shocked when he said he wasn’t into it. I try not to think about the negatives…that it def isn’t just me…its not because I’m not beautiful enough or smart enough or interesting enough for him. I don’t know…but I guess it is what it is.

I guess Mr. Match wasnt a match afterall.

Mr Match

I’ve met someone…not sure what to say about him or what to call him…maybe Mr. Match? Mr. Match1? Mr. Matchone? Technically he is the second guy I have dated off of match, but the first guy, Mr. Artsy…he was just kind of feminine…and just wasn’t right.

Last night…we met at the bar down the street from me…he actually called me when he got there…while I was walking there…so I knew he would be waiting for me. I didn’t know what to expect to be honest…I had seen some pictures…but wasn’t sure…the pics were not the best quality.

I walked in and touched his shoulder, saying Mr. Match, and then laughed…and said well I hope its you cause I feel like the biggest dipshit if it wasn’t.

We sat at a booth…me arriving at 7 on the dot…by 8:30…I was a little shocked an hour and a half had gone by…and then another hour and a half the next time I looked. It was a really nice time…we talked so much…and to be honest I don’t know exactly about one thing in particular…just about everything…it was really really nice.

As we were closing the tab…he asked me out for Friday night, which I’m hoping I can make…if I’m not called in that is.

We walked outside…and he said, “Can I get a hug?” so we hugged…it was a first time in awhile where I actually enjoyed it…and kind of didn’t want to let go.

We shall see…I don’t want to jinx it.

I dont know...

I don’t know…
I’m not sure what to write about, since I haven’t met any new people recently. I am actually kind of ready again…I need some kind of distraction. BUT, since I am getting pickier and since no one emails me back off of Match…I am not sure what to do. I have joined a few other sights I have heard about recently…Ok Cupid and PlentyofFish.

I don’t know…
The sights are ok…but I think a lot of them are just about sex…so I am skeptical about whom I am talking to on there now. Its kind of nice on these sights though…because I don’t have to give my IM or email…cause they have IM incorporated into the sight—which is nice. I had some guy Iming me last night…and within minutes he was asking what my Pjs looked like…see now I don’t want to talk to him anymore.

I don’t know…
Like I said…I am kind of ready again…but who do I go out with? How do I attract them? I was talking to a friend about online dating and how most people I have met want sex so fast…and his analogy was that online=sex. I have figured out the craigslist=sex, but I don’t know if I believe that all online is about finding someone to “screw.” Online for me is just a way to meet people. I could go shopping everyday…but does that work? Or I could go read at a bookstore…but I never ever talk to people…and how do you know they are single. At least online they say they are even if they aren’t.

I don’t know…
I am just lonely and bored and it makes me question my life…like what am I doing really?

I don’t know…
I don’t know…
Do you?

So

I changed my profile yet again...and sent out an email or two last night...and see---this is one of the responses...

"Thanks for writing to me, but unfortunately, we're just not a good match. Good luck in your search!

Our Portraits didn't match on:
• Physical Attraction"

New Profile just for anyone who cares and wants to give feedback.

"""I am who I am. What kind of person am I? I am smart, witty, and I enjoy laughing and having fun. I want to further my career but I don’t want my career to engulf my life. Now, who is it, you ask, that goes with such a being? Someone easygoing. Someone genuine. Someone who can enhance my life without being my life. Someone comfortable in their own skin and who is OK with my skin, too.

It’s been a challenge, as it’s made me appreciate having close friends, as it’s not the easiest thing to uproot and make new ones! I don’t want to play it safe, as I would much rather live hard and have fun doing it. I can be shy, but I can also be the loudest one at the party. I can do shots with the best of them…or chill out with a dark beer…or even a stiff drink. I am more of a pub girl verses a club girl. I love going to a new restaurant or trying a Phantom Gourmet favorite.

I love going to the movies…something to loose myself for a few hours…although reading does the same. I don’t mind watching a movie at home...if I have someone to enjoy it with. From Old School to 12 Monkeys to Walk the Line…I can watch any movie once.

I love my friends and family, and I am the most loyal person you will meet and the best friend you can have. Along with that, I value highly my family and friends. Without them, I wouldn’t be where I am, and I am happier and more fortunate for having them.

Ideally, I would like someone who can make me laugh everyday no matter what. A sweet goofball with a soft place in his heart for me. I want someone with whom to do fun things. I want someone who is more passionate about their life as compared to their work, but who can also say they love what they do. And most importantly…. Don’t skip this part, OK? I want someone who will treat me with the respect I deserve and who can and will appreciate all I have to offer. In return, you get the same.

So if that’s you then why haven’t you started emailing me yet? Wink"""

Male Perspective?

I still have gotten very little responses from Match…and yes that temps me to go back to CL…I know I know I am not going to. But damn it…why doesn’t anyone respond to me.

I was talking with a friend tonight…a male perspective. I don’t know why no one wants to talk to me…and as I was saying this I realized that I have become stronger in the last few months. I don’t regret what happened with Anchorman…it just made me stronger. Now, I want to find a guy who is going to treat me with some respect…in the beginning I definitely let guys treat me pretty bad because I didn’t care…they liked me so what the fuck…why not take some of the abuse right?

But now I know that this isn’t ok, cause at the end of the day I still feel like shit…it might have been an ego boost at first…but what about after?

The only thing I took away from the Match conversation was…I have gotten stronger and pickier with my “old age” but I still think a lot of it has to do with my weight. I have taken a look at myself the last few months…both with the dating and working for Lane Bryant…but it made me realizes that I am beautiful. I don’t have to be Paris’s size to be me. I see size 28 women come into the store…that probably could be the most beautiful women I have ever met. Even the ones that are ashamed of who there are…they are beautiful. It’s the clothes you wear…the style…the hair…the attitude…the whole package that makes a person…and when someone is genuine…they are no matter what. The people that shop at LB are amazing and it made me realize that no matter what…I am me. I am always going to have a weight problem…even if I get down to a size 8…when I have kids…the weight will be back.

Its moments like tonight that make me think about all the people I have met that have inspired me to take another look at myself and see me for me. I just wish guys could do the same thing. I just wish I could grab some of these guys and say what the fuck…you are not Brad Pit…come on be real here…what is wrong with me?

I changed my Match profile again…hoping that maybe the last one was just to long…so this time I shortened…maybe it’s less intimidating and more real? Any thoughts?

I am me. I am smart, funny and LOVE to laugh. I want someone who can enhance my life without being my life.

I have been doing the career world, letting me live in five states in just over five years… I want to live life to the fullest and have fun doing it. I’m shy, but can be the loudest one at the party. I can do a shot with the best of them…a beer with great taste…or a strong stiff drink. I am more of a pub girl verses a club girl. I love going to a new restaurant or trying a Phantom Gourmet favorite.

I love going to the movies…something to loose myself for a few hours…although reading does the same. I don’t mind watching a movie at home...if I have someone to enjoy it with. From Old School to 12 Monkeys to Walk the Line…I can watch any movie once. I love my friends and family, and I am the most loyal person you will meet, the best friend you will have.

I would love for someone who can make me laugh everyday no matter what. I want someone to do things with and to have fun with. I want someone who is passionate about life as much as there work. I want someone who will treat me with the respect I deserve and who can appreciate all I have to offer.

Maybe that’s you?

Confused...

I am a little sad today…I am not sure what brought this on…I hate when I have this in my head, in my heart…I cant escape it…when I should be doing work and not over thinking friends…guys…work…life. But I am in that mode today…

I think its boredom, its weird though…cause I have to much going on in my life right now to be bored…but I am…or am I?

In the past few months…when this emotion hit me…this is when I would go on CL and IM people…just to keep my mind off of other things…but since this is something I just cant do anymore, now what am I going to do? It was distracting me from my work… but it also distracted me from my thoughts.

I am still doing Match…but for some reason I don’t get many responses…I am not sure why? Is it because they really haven’t joined but made a profile for free and now are stuck only winking…but then again I don’t get that many winks either. I have come to the conclusion that this is ok…because when someone does that means they like me for what they see and read…and I know this…deep down…but man it is so frustrating on days like today…when I want to scream…what the fuck?

I have been seeing Anchorman again…I know not a good thing…it just kind of never ended in the first place. I am embarrassed that I have allowed it to continue…but it’s a good distraction from the chaos of my life these days. Work, family, and friends have collided into my life all at once…I have a friend moving into my apartment, into Boston tomorrow…my dad is moving to Atlanta today…things at work are interesting to say the least…. and I am just confused…. and for once Anchorman wasnt in my every waking thought…and he is a good distraction when he is.

But, I invited him over to my one last night of an empty apartment before my surrogate brother moves in. The last time we hung out…he had a phone on him…interesting…which I made a comment about saying we cant hang out again until he calls. So in the email I sent him I gave him my number and said he has to call. I then emailed him again asking him what the big deal is.

“I promise not to call you all the time if I have ur number you know...I probably never will...but it would be nice to have once in every blue moon...what r u scared of? Or do you have a girlfriend or wife you are afraid will find out about me?? You make me paranoid.”

And it hit me…what am I doing? I feel gross and ashamed that I have let it go on this long. But what am I to do? I like the way I feel when he is over…I like when I laugh until my sides hurt…we just have so much fun. Its not like he treats me like shit when he is with me…that’s the hard part…. because while he is there…I forget why I get upset and why he makes me sad. Then he leaves…and I feel it all over again. That’s what the problem is at the end of the day…I feel good with him. I guess I just need to realize that maybe my few hours of feeling good are being overridden by the questions I have after.

Mr Artsy is Kaput

Mr. Artsy and I are finished…Kaput. I am not sure what happened really…just no chemistry I guess. He said,

"well I was thinking about that. And I think it would be best if we didn't because I don't feel a real connection, ya know? that is, there not much of a mutal personality volley or compatibility. I really don't want it come come across harsh 'cause you're a nice woman."

…hmm is he gay? LOL just kidding…

It was sad sort of to have him say he wasn’t interested. I am not sure why that makes me sad since I wasn’t so sure on him anyway…he did live at home…didn’t own a car…and his mom still cooks him dinner on a daily basis. So…there were a lot of things pointing to not a great match in the superficial areas…let alone the spark that just wasn’t there.

He was sweet and nice…and we did have some things in common…but overall I was just kind of bored with him…I didn’t laugh the way I want to. I didn’t really think about him and get those butterflies at the sight of him or at the IM that would come across my screen.

SO its ok, and I am ok…I think I am not over Anchorman as dumb as that seems…but I want what we had…but just outside of the bedroom as well as inside. With Anchorman I laugh until my stomach hurts, and I never feel self-conscious when I with him…not really.

SO, at the end of the day Mr. Artsy was more of a friend then anything else. I did say that to him…that I felt more like we were friends…and would like to continue in that respects… and he said, “No, I would rather not.”

Hmmm, I did get sad at that…I got sad at loosing a friend that could have been great…I am sad at the dreams that once again will not happen with him…that’s ok…Ill be ok…cause I just want to find someone who I am attracted to, someone who I can laugh with and at, and most of all will treat me the way I SHOULD be treated.

The Lawyer came clean

I have decided once and for all to be done with CL. I have said this in the past…but it just doesn’t end well…and I cant take it anymore…the lies…the sex…the rock and roll?

SO, I have mentioned The Lawyer a time or two on here…how he seems so nice and sweet…and how last week I stood him up…

Well we had plans to go to lunch today. And me being to busy, we decided to reschedule…but only certain times that he could meet.

Hmmm…I started thinking about our past conversations…

“I am single too, I live in Brighton, and I am 28 years old...you”

But in a previous conversation he said he was 27…and then in the past few weeks…he never ever mentioned Brighton again. SO see…questions are starting to arise.

Especially when he asked me a few days ago if I would ever date a married man…his response was because he dated a married women once and was curious. Hmmm yea.

So today…all these thoughts are swirling in my head and I asked for like the 10th time if he was married. He played a trick on me…saying he was some “fiancé” checking her email on his computer, and “what are you doing with my man.” I decided after all this…that the signs are all fitting into place. He had to be married…why else would he be acting like this. He wont tell me where he lives…he doesn’t have a phone number he says…why not? His wife might find out?

AND saying:
"okay so just for the sake of argument....assuming I am involved...you still wouldn't date me....although let's say, dating me and being together would be a lot of fun?....hypothetically speaking:)"

or

"well...hypothetically speaking....if you know that we are together just to have a great time...lets say 1 year or so.....if u never acpected anything from the beginning...it would be just as a regular relationship....no??" His response being: "I am just making conversation, you are so easily influenced"

SO, after telling me he was seeing someone…and me saying…all I want is someone who is honest…I want you to be honest with me.

He finally came clean…

The Lawyer is married.

SO, no more CL…he was the last guy that I was going to meet from there…and he broke it. I can’t take it anymore…at least with Mr. Artsy we got to third date before he even kissed me. Match is hard because no one emails or winks at me…I still am not sure as to why…but I guess time will tell…maybe one person a month is doable…

SO, The Lawyer is married…what an ass.

My Match

Ok any feedback is helpful: this is my profile on Match...still only one real guy that I am in touch with in a Month...and that is Mr Artsy...so help?

I have my own life and career, but I would love for you to come along for the ride. I know I’m not Paris Hilton…but I am me. I am smart, funny and LOVE to laugh. I want someone who can enhance my life without being my life.

I have been doing the career world, letting me live in five states in just over five years…Albany NY, Burlington VT, Charlotte NC, Atlanta Ga and I am now in Boston… hopefully to stay.

I loved Burlington- Lake Champlain took my breath away every morning…even if it was a little cold at times…but made me realize how much I love the mountains and lakes and nature.

Living in the South was interesting…something I never would have thought would be such a culture shock…crossing the big divide. I liked it though…staying at 65 during February was a nice change…but in the summer and sweating in air conditioning kind of sucked. I was a Yankee…and def never understood a true Southern Bell. It takes me 30 minutes to get ready, not two hours.

But, Boston…this had been a favorite. I love walking through the commons...or seeing the city lights at night. It’s a great place to live…I love the people and the sites…the history… and I love seeing and learning something new at every corner.

I want to live life to the fullest and have fun doing it. I’m shy, but can be the loudest one at the party. I can do a shot with the best of them…a beer with great taste…or a strong stiff drink. I am more of a pub girl verses a club girl. I love going to a new restaurant or trying a Phantom Gourmet favorite. I love sushi, Thai, Indian, a great burrito (something I learned from the south).

I love going to the movies…something to loose myself for a few hours…although reading does the same. I don’t mind watching a movie at home...if I have someone to enjoy it with. From Old School to 12 Monkeys to Walk the Line…I can watch any movie once.

I love my friends and family, and I am the most loyal person you will meet, the best friend you will have. Obviously from the statement above, I am a genuine person. I hope to find someone who can appreciate all I have to offer.

Maybe that’s you?

Need Guidelines

I was talking with a friend yesterday about how I pick guys…and you know…want to know the truth…if they are slightly interesting and give me attention I meet them. Yup that is it…bad I know...But I do say I like to laugh and if they promise to make me laugh…I’m and they are golden.

I decided I do need to be a little more selective…because in the end if I find them interesting I probably will in person too. But in the past I wanted to be intrigued and interested…but the minute they showed an interest in me…I forgot about being interesting in THEM…all I cared about is if they are into ME.

In the beginning it was even worse…like Dr Jekyll…if I met him today…probably wouldn’t be into him…but 9 months ago I was smitten. Why? Cause he showed an interest in me.

I liked The Turkey and The General because they liked me…and were attracted…BUT I was too. And they showed an interest in more then just my looks, we laughed and talked…and had a good time. The General asked tons of questions…showing an interest in what I did.

Not sure what happened with Anchorman…we just hit it off and have fun…from the very beginning…we clicked. BUT, he did show an interest in me…so see that made me like HIM even more.

With Mr. Martini…I didn’t share this in the beginning cause I’m embarrassed that I can ignore something so obvious right from the start. He responded to my ad…. and a few hours went by…I thought I had responded to him…but I guess I didn’t. And I get an email from him saying:

“You SUCK”

Instead…I didn’t go with my gut that I should let him just go and never ever have responded. But nope…I emailed back. And we started talking…him saying “I am a nice guy you know, don’t take the SUCK personally.” See I should have…right from the start. BUT, he was interested in ME…never even seeing a picture of me until the day we met.

Somehow, I need to start getting some guidelines set and be a little more screening before I let myself meet and waste my time with these people. A lot of time its more me. I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings…so I give everyone the benefit of the doubt…even when they say, “well I do want a relationship…not just sex.” I don’t know…I am not even sure it is what I am looking…I mean with every date…I know more what I DON’T want. But maybe I don’t know what I do want. I do know I want someone who I can have fun with and laugh with. I started talking to this one guy last night from Match…and you know…we really clicked. He likes a lot of the same things I do. He likes wine tasting and art museums. Art galleries and pubs…I don’t know we just had so much to TALK about…it was kind of fun.

Anyway…I do need to get some guidelines set for myself…I just so afraid of hurting someone…which is ironic because I think I have been hurt more this last year then most people have been there whole lives…SO…I need to STOP worrying about others and start worrying about me…help…

Another Post: Why not?

So I have been on Match for a little while, what two weeks now...and nothing set in stone yet...its hard to meet people on there at times...

But there have been a few who I have talked to in the past or right now from CL. So see, CL in Boston can yes be sketchy, but you can also meet lots of ok people on there too that have used or are using Match.

So I decided to after meeting some guy last night...who kind of reminded me of Donald Trump. I really cannot stand him...his mouth drives me crazy--and not a good crazy. So yes, this guy last night looked like him...and I was just sooo bored. And in the middle of the date he says..."So when are you going to come and meet my dog?"

He said it in this sleazy way...that makes me know that he wasn’t just talking about seeing his "dog."

Yes...I decided to post another ad on CL....knowing that I need to be a little more watchful of who I am meeting. But some guys are great...just not meant for me. Some people I have met have become my best friends here...so as long as I’m careful...why not?

So this is the Ad I put in:

Lets DATE:

Where are the guys all my friends meet? I want a guy to wine and dine me. Lets go on a few dates, maybe kiss once or twice and like me for me. Help me like them for them. All I’ve met are the guys that want to fool around during the first date...you see I have a 5-6 date rule. I’m not that kind of girl...I want to have fun, see where it can go...not looking to be married...but am looking for more then being a hook up girl.

I am not thin, I’m not huge either…but I am overweight…a size 16. So if overweight women are a turn off…don’t waste my or your time.

Are there any guys that want to DATE me...see where it can go??

And I get this response from one guy which I thought I would share...and see this is why I get down on myself from time to time...so I am going to post it so I can laugh it off and NOT have it get to me.


Reality Check: If you look like Eva Longoria, you can get away with being a "5-6 date rule" girl. If you are a size 16, you can't. Sorry, but that's life, I don't make the rules.

You're more likely to find the type of guy you're looking for in church than on Craiglist.


So anyway....

Miss Piggy?

Not much is going on in the Match world. Guys look at my profile, my “portrait” and pic and decide it they want to contact me. Hardly any do…and then I wonder once again why? Was it something about me that they don’t find attractive? I wonder---am I Miss Piggy?

Then I go back to why should it matter? Why can’t someone see my smile and say, wow she isn’t a bitch like most of the other girls I date…she will treat me right. Why can’t I find Anchorman or The Hero on Match, where they will like me and want to be with me longer then the time that’s allotted for them?

I’m frustrated…when I tell friends this, they say…”KT, its only been a few days, relax…give it time.” What if I do, and 6 months go by and still I meet no one? Is that possible? Hell I guess I will get 6 free months…that’s the guarantee right?

See, this is what I’m scared of. At least with CL… I can say I’m a Big, Beautiful, Women, and guys that like BBW will respond. Where are those kind of people on Match? Do they exist? And when I see that yes, they are attracted to over weight women, then why do they not email me?

Anyway, this is where I am at with Match.com 4 nights after joining, winking at 75, emailing 20, and 38 looking back at me. Only 4 emails were sent my way…hmmm… am I a bitch? Miss Piggy? What is wrong with this picture?

Joing Match

I joined Match.com this weekend. After getting so emotional, I decided I would try joining a service one more time…at least if guys are paying to meet someone…they are a little more serious. They want more then just my body. It’s kind of ironic and funny though. I felt good and important in the beginning when a guy would be attracted to me. Even if he just wanted sex…not that I took him up on the offer…but that an attractive guy…whoever he might have been…was into me.

But, when I join and pay for a service…like Yahoo or Match, I feel like guys find me soooo unattractive. They are shopping and don’t like the image I portray. Not that all these guys are dreamboats…far from it. No Tom Brady’s on Match that I can see. So I don’t know how many Paris Hilton’s there are in the female section, because am I really that unattractive? I don’t know…as friends say…I need to stop talking like that. But I can’t help but wonder what guys on Match see when they see my profile.

You take 100 bad photo’s to find one great one, so maybe if 100 guys look at me and reject me from one or two images and some words…maybe one out of the 100 will find me attractive to go on a date with me. And date me for me, not just to win another notch on their bedpost.

Here is what I wrote in my ad…tell me what you think. Be honest with me…anything to make it better…


"Ain't you glad we ain't all California girls. Ain't you glad there's still a few of us left. That knows how to rock your world. That Paris Hilton Gets under my skin, with her big fake smile and her painted on tan. She'd never have a chance at a real man." Gretchin Wilson said it, I agree. Are you man enough to meet me? Friends first and hopefully more.

It’s hard for me though to meet people in everyday scenarios. I’m not big at hanging out at a bar just to pick someone up, if I do go--I’m usually with a group of friends. And what am I going to do, start spending hours at the grocery store, LOL, does that even work.

I’m shy...but can be the loudest on at the party at the same time. I am smart and funny and LOVE to laugh. I want to be able to find someone who can be my friend...someone who I can call on a bad day or a good day.

I have been doing the career world up until the last few months...and decided I needed more to live for. My goal is to live life to the fullest and have fun doing it. I love my friends and family… and I am the most loyal person you will meet.

I am NOT thin...but am curvy.
I am NOT tall...but am petite.
I am NOT fake...but am real.

Obviously from the statement above, I am ME...I am real and want to find someone who can appreciate all I have to offer. It takes me 30 minutes to get ready, not two hours. I can do a shot with the best of them...and drink about anything once...why not?

I love having time for my friends and family...and someone important as well. I want someone who can enhance my life without being my life. Maybe that’s you?